Loving Nothingness

nothing special for ages. noone interesting that i was meeting and who put me under a spell.
well until that time when i saw her. the truth is that i ve never fallen so hard for someone who i barely know. well at least i can say that she likes girls and that she takes it slow.
but i swear to you that when she looks in my eyes and when she touches me, even by accident i forget to breath. for sure i know it wont take me anywhere to just sit here and think >> oh my god such a pretty face - such a perfect body <<
i know where i stand in life and i know who i am and what i want and expect from myself but in that case i am lost. there is nothing i can do nothing i can say nothing i can assume.
she is out of my reach and for the first time its not about pride and about her hurting my ego.
i want to get to know her. i want to talk to her. i want to know whats behind them blue eyes, what makes them stopping me from knowing what i wanted to say.

just think about a pretty flower. you sit and stare. you sit and dive into the unknown world of beauty. not because its something new but sometimes you start to forget that there is bad things in this world. that is exactly the feeling that i get when i have the chance to look at her.
i hope she will never figure it out. i hope she will never see what i see when i stare at her.
but i wish i could hold her for one night.